Pain

I cant think anymore anything else that Elena, I miss her too much i want to talk with her. I have to i cant stand this pain anymore.
Tears are falling from my eye's every day and night, my mind and thoughts goes back to day i met Elena. from that day she changed my life and met to me everything. I never lied to her never cheated, i just want to see her now matter how painful it would be. All i ever wanted after that day i met her was to meet her and be with her foreer. Elena if you read this or other of my journals please take contact to me, i have to get to talk with you, i still want to be your friend please i beg of you, please take contact, lets talk our feelings that how we feel eachothers, i dont ask anything else than to be your friend, please i hope that isint too much to ask, i do know you try to forget me but im sorry for all bad things i did to you that they hurted you, i hate myself because what i did to you, i didn't let you see that i really care and that did hurt you, im sorry im sorryyy. i cant do anything else. Elena Vasili you are all i have left but of you i have anymore memorys left, i will never forget you, never let you go from most importantes place in ma heart, you are still there. I hope you understand me, all i ever cared about was you. Not me or my friends or my strange plans only all i cared about ever was you. i want you to be happy. i hope we can still be friends. PLEASE TAKE CONTACT TO ME ELENA VASILI :'( MÄ RAKASTAN SUA VIELLÄKIN!!!!!!