Every night i go to sleep with tears in my eyes.

I' m happier than ever could be, yet these are tears of sadness and fear. I didn' t know how love can hurt until i had my babies. I love them so much, it is like a knife stabbing through my body. A massive pain that hits me with such a force, that sometimes i find it hard to breathe.



I thought i could not love more when i had my first baby. But having my second one, i realised that mother' s love don' t divide, it multiplies. It doubles and right now my heart feels too big for my chest. I want these babies feel no sorrow or fear. I want them to be happy, give them all they need. That is why i cry. I cry for the moments they will feel the pain, disappointment and sadness, because no one in this world can be saved from that. No matter how much i love them or how much i want to, i can' t wrap them into a cotton wool. I am happy, but responsability is a heavy cloud. It makes my eyes rain, but only in the evenings when i watch my creations of innocence sleeping. In the morning i am ready to smile again.